-ScrewDriver FreeWrite-

Staring at the wall again, with nothing to hide
You let your emotions run rapid
Youre a lost soul
Searching to know your barriers and limit yourself to YOUR expectations
So you do it
Punching and creating a giant hole in the wall
Counts for the holes in your heart
Oh, about 35 of them
Crying red tears that are full of rage,
And they run into your mouth,
Tasting the saltyness of pain
You leave the wall, broke open,
Only to stream down the stairs into the garage,
Where you know your dad keeps his exacto knife
Visions blurry, so you run into things on the way out
Searching for your only escape,
And youre twitching now because you cant find it
Opening, closing, opening, closing again
Youve been through every drawer at least three times
Still, no sign of it
So you get a screwdriver
Thatll do
Reaching out and placing your arm on the tool bench
Wrist up
You stab the screwdriver through your arm, right where the vein is
Screaming because it hurts so bad,
And you hate the pain,
But you hate him more
You feel like youre drifting off because you lost so much blood
But he desreves a letter you think,
This is because of him
So you shift your body towards the door,
But you realize,
That youre stuck
The screwdriver went all the way through and was stuck to the toolbench,
And with every inch you move,
Tears the hole more
You dont deserve this,
Hes just a boyfriend
Youre fucked though,
Because you died